At this habit of carrying chips in colleges, so... Well, before we can do it, I have a confession（忏悔） to make（使）. I became an actor because I had a problem. I was an introvert. You know, I'm the youngest of my family. And I was so pampered in my house that when I used to step（走） out, I didn't know how to deal with people.
So I gradually（逐渐地）, I became this very shy（羞怯的） introvert kid who could not talk, where I still cannot talk. And I have this stage fright. So in case, so what I do generally（一般地） as an actor is I hide behind all these fascinating（迷人的） characters. And then I'm gone for it. But like（喜欢） right now, as I'm not acting, so there are problems that I'll screw（拧紧） it up. So excuse（原谅） me if I fall though（ 虽然）.
Excuse me if I don't make sense. Excuse me if I get a panic（惊慌） attack right now. But I'll try my best. Love you anyway. All right. I would love to share my journey with you, my learnings.
And in case you decide to drop out and join me in whatever（任何）, it will come very handy（手边的）. So I was thinking in the car, what do I talk about? What can I tell you that you already don't know? I'm assuming（假定）, and I think most probably you guys are way（大大地） much more smarter（聪明的） and better than what I was when I was your age. You know, already you know about the cup tour competition. You know the importance（重要） of hard work, perseverance（坚持不懈）, and vision（视）, focus, self（自己）-belief（相信）, and et cetera, et cetera.
So I don't need to talk about that. But deep thinking, I zeroed down into two things that I can actually discuss about. These two things talk about chasing（追逐） your dreams and actually living your dreams, which unfortunately nobody mentioned to me when I was starting out. And those two things are-- can I write them? Can you see the boards? So yeah, so those two things are the biggest lie（谎言） and the only truth（真理） about success that I was told about.
Now（现在） the biggest lie（谎言） was money plus（正号） recognition is equal to happiness is equal to success. So let me begin by mentioning that I come from a very middle-class family. And when I was growing up, money was a big, big, big differentiator in my life. Also in the three generations（一代） of my family that I know of that are documented（记载）, nobody knew what fame（名声） felt like. So basically（基本上） both money and recognition（认出） were missing（未击中） when I started out. So I already started out as a failure（失败）.
Let me be very crosswise. My family told me that I had to become an engineer. Medicines were booked for my sister. So once（一旦） I'm an engineer, then I can, you know, try civil（公民的） services examination（考试） and then probably-- yeah, that would be like opening the doors for all kind of happiness（幸福）. And I'll be forever（永远） successful. I'll be forever happy.
This is the conditioning that I experienced（经验） when I was growing up. All right, fair enough. Good deal（买卖）. So I became very good in studies. Did fairly（相当） well in my 10th board exams. And then off I went to Delhi for my plus two, got myself enrolled（登记） in a nice school, and with them on there, and Fiji, and a half a dozen（一打） of other coaching institutes（研究所）.
And I used to share my room with three other senior（年少的） aspirants. What it meant was, every day after finishing my assignments（任务）, school assignments, and preparing for my engineering（工程） entrance（入口） exam, I had to wash my clothes, and I had to cook food for myself. But I wasn't complaining. Well, it was worth（值…的） it, because after all, I was, for the very first time in my life, I was so close to become successful for the first time in my life. So, yeah. Finally, I slogged, I got selected（挑选） for several engineering（工程） colleges, and I decided to take admission（允许进入） in Delhi College of Engineering（工程）, which is now known as JTU.